to wear my hope, always...
Last evening, a piece of bad news came my way
being prepared didn’t make it any less discouraging
a dream paused in its track
tears… they came silently,
threatening to spill over
soon, it poured in gusts
I know not how much time passed by as I lay curled up on bed
letting the deluge soak me through...
sometimes, a little rain can help clear and condition everything in nature... including a pale heart.
slowly… a veil of calm enveloped me.
slowly… a veil of calm enveloped me.
I saw the sky turn dark and the stars appear. Witnessing such simple yet magical act that’s
religiously performed day after day helped cluster back my hope.
religiously performed day after day helped cluster back my hope.
Hope need not always translate into an exact desired fulfillment. It can mean to quietly go on
believing. Hold onto our faiths irrespective of what comes our way. Keeping hope is to keep
oneself alive.
believing. Hold onto our faiths irrespective of what comes our way. Keeping hope is to keep
oneself alive.
There will be changes, some drastic and some slight; some days there will be bright skies
beckoning us to shine forth and on others, only a grey expanse shrouded with heavy clouds.
beckoning us to shine forth and on others, only a grey expanse shrouded with heavy clouds.
Still, like the stars above, we must do our best to twinkle through all… each day, everyday.
And hope is just the right spell that helps us perform such magic. In that moment, I renewed my
promise to hold onto it, more than ever. To always wear my hope.
promise to hold onto it, more than ever. To always wear my hope.
Later, when my soulmate returned home, I let myself be held in an embrace while his gentle
hands and incessant words of comfort stroked me. Before the night ended, we went on a bike ride
for some fresh air. It made me think of Charu, who’s not just fighting for her dreams but her life.
hands and incessant words of comfort stroked me. Before the night ended, we went on a bike ride
for some fresh air. It made me think of Charu, who’s not just fighting for her dreams but her life.
While I’m breathing in gulps of cool air, she’s indefinitely depending on a ventilator for inhalation.
While I’m fraught with merely a bit of a hurdle, she’s struggling for a decent subsistence.
I felt so humbled when faced with these thoughts. It made me count my blessings more profoundly
and moved me to in-return [do my best] to make my dreams twinkle through, no matter what
obstacles. Because… that’s what I can genuinely do to show my gratitude.
While I’m fraught with merely a bit of a hurdle, she’s struggling for a decent subsistence.
I felt so humbled when faced with these thoughts. It made me count my blessings more profoundly
and moved me to in-return [do my best] to make my dreams twinkle through, no matter what
obstacles. Because… that’s what I can genuinely do to show my gratitude.
Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while,
so that we can see life with a clearer view again.
Alex Tan
What I could gather from the Facebook page is that both Charu and Vikrant are on their path to recovery. They are blessed souls , God has been merciful and our prayers have been answered.
ReplyDeleteNirmala, thank you for your soul stirring photographs describing the fragility of the ongoing situation and reflecting a hopeful, more beautiful future for them.
Take care and have a nice day ,
Thank you Sanghamitra. Yes, Vikrant has improved largely, while doctors are expecting to bring back Charu's normal breathing ability. Due to her severe spinal injury, its taking an extensive time for progress. Hope God blesses her with a speedy recovery.
DeleteI wrote this post to vent out my disheartened feeling caused by a not-so-good news regarding the dream I'm working on fulfilling. But, I'm also gratified that eventually, after a lot of thinking that included remembering Charu's situation, my mind gathered back its strength to find other ways to work towards executing my dream.
Sometimes it becomes difficult to be optimistic when we are weighed-down by our woes. But, when we compare it with other's who are facing bigger hardships, it makes us aware and reminds us of all our blessings.
We learn so much with each experience...
Nirmala, hold on for some more time ....I mean about your dreams being fulfilled. As they say - "Everything will be ok in the end, if it is not ok now, then it is not the end ."
ReplyDeleteMeanwhile, you have to strengthen yourself ...you have to be more stronger than what you used to be earlier....You have to raise the bar , the bar of your creativity and courage....this is the only way we can face the challenges of life. Be so strong that the challenges/hurdles etc.etc. cannot sabotage/change your hopes and dreams.
Do not let one bad incident define you- there will be a million other opportunities peeping from every corner in the days to come and if you do not strengthen yourself now, then you will not be able to see those opportunities...
So hang on there and be strong
Take care,
Yes, Sanghamitra, I'm committing to do just that. Thank you once again for your words of support and courage!
DeleteTears are essential. For release. For sanity. For continuity.
ReplyDeleteHow terrible for your friend Charu. Have prayed for her.
Ronnie xo
Yes Ronnie, tears renew a soul and help wipe away the smudges of hurt, despair and at times even mere grayness. Thank you for your understanding.
DeleteAnd special thanks for offering your prayers for Charu's well-being.
Nirmala, an award is waiting for you at my blog. Please check it whenever you get time !
ReplyDeletetake care,
Sanghamitra, can I thank you enough for all these thoughtful awards? I'm honored, really!
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